Knowing

I find it interesting to ponder different expressions. The one that intrigues me today is the whole idea of "Knowing." What do we really mean when we say "I know?"

Why is this coming up? I think it has to do with me not being able to find this current blog. I wonder why I can't find it. Is it because what I wrote what might be seen as something too personal? Could it be a simple question of not closing out properly last time? I really have no way of "knowing."

I thought if I came here and tried a new post, and it worked, I might have more information about the page. However, what would I really "know?" Only that this entry was posted. Not truly anything relating to the last one.

If this doesn't post, does it mean that the blog has been suspended? Perhaps it is something wrong with the address I have been using? Maybe the server upon which my page resides is having trouble? Perhaps the other blogs I've visited are simply on a different server. How will posting this make any difference in my understanding or "knowing" the true explanation.

And how does this all relate to spiritual development? There is a part of me that suspects it is deeply related. Another part tells me this is all "crap" and that I am just rambling in order to get to the end so I can post. Am I becoming schizophrenic before your very eyes?

Who "knows?"